I simply liked tumblr because of the funny quotes, amazing graphics, amazing photos, good music. It seems quite obvious more than ever that many tumblr blogs are self promotion or about love. For me in my current state I think it's healthy to strain from that. I'm so tired now I could crash but I'm waiting for Silla and need to study. Events occurred tonight that made it quite clear. From a different perspective and I realized so much. I'm done for real now. It's a long time coming. I honestly can't go on hurting this person, for my selfish reasons. I'm growing up I guess.

- fin. drawing and comp
- fin. liberals
- fin. form & space (wood)

The semester is almost over and I'm just excited to come and go home you know? As much as I hate to admit it, it kind of felt great being here. Feels like I'm growing up. It feels, not saying I'm grown up I still need my parents and support. I've enjoyed this whole new experience and mos' def have grown as an artist. I use to complain about studio classes, but I'm finding them enjoyable. Sure some people dabble straight into what they need. Where is the foundation though you know? The core, the basics to lay all their creative stuff on? Well it's been a difficult bittersweet couple of months. I'm looking forward to hoppin' on that plane. Get to some place familiar and good eatin'

Hear me calling
Stop before you start falling
Foolish heart heed my warning
You've been wrong before

- Feelin' this song.

I've been fighting for something that isn't there. I don't know why. Unconditionally I'm in a unrequited relationship. I don't know. I don't know. I'm tried of hurting. Beating myself up. If you don't call thanks. I know what that means. Goodbye. I'm tired of fighting. I'm only blogging just to keep my mind clear. To take this burden off, but it's not working. My mind is off.

I need a pick me up. I haven't been feeling good emotionally. It's so annoying. I hate this. It's 3 more weeks till I come home, and I should be happy right? I should be excited? Now it feels like I'm just doing things just to get by, that's horrible I can't have that happening. I'm thinking about transferring to another school. Parsons? maybe. At least there's room and board. I don't know I have to think it over.

201 (minus the 0 equal days left)

Happy Holidays. Took this picture last year at Honolulu City Lights. 21 days I can't wait to go to the beaches, eat gooood food, and just chill. Oh joy oh joy :D! Well I'm awake and have class at 12. I just hate how long it is. Walking home late tonight, I hate that.

Maybe being here made me a little stronger. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. I really need to go see a doctor and find out if I really do have depression. It's not pathetic it's real.