Today was a perfect adventure ♥

Shake it OFF :/

I'm sorry. I don't think I can be friends with you. I never could. You probably think I'm playing.But thinking about it I've wanted it for quite some time. It caught me off guard. Like "How did I get to this point?" The point where NOW I'm the one that wants to call it quits. I fought with you for so long to keep it together.Now it's more and more clear it's time to call it quits.You don't need me hurting you anymore. I've tried to be patient I've tried to understand. I stuck it out when you were mad. Grabbed you when your threw your fists. I've put up with everything you called me. I tried. Looking at the past there were a lot of memories good ones funny ones perfect ones. But looking at now it's just a lot of pain hurt mistrust.I care about you. & I want to protect you again. From me this time. It's better for you.



Ugh I wish I had the courage to say this to you.

Magic 8 - Pod

I turn to my ipod like a magic eight ball. Ughh but didn't find the answer I was looking for.
Funny when you're looking real hard for the right thing you don't see what's right in front of you.

I think I finally came to a decision.
Fuck I hope I'm right.

At a young age I believed the future was going to be just like the Jetson's. Flying cars, connivence of every level, and a robot named Rosie. It was a perfect utopia. Perfect idea. The world had stop trying to conquer the world and decided to take the air. That was the image/idea back then. Unfortunately as I grew up that idea slowly got beaten down by reality.

THAT SUCKS.

Today in class my teacher was talking about post modernism. That there's an pessimistic outlook on life. That there is no future rather a lot of nostalgic thoughts. She questioned what was a causing factor to that outlook. I, quite shy whispered "Recession" it wasn't the answer that she was looking for. But she began to touch up on that subject. She started apologizing for her generation. Saying that they had it good. Now we've left you a world on fire. Then she said please change it. You make the future. Then as the history lesson went on. It started connecting art and it's role in the world. How it affects not only the cultural aspect of society but social and political. I mean what is art?! Right? Practically everything and anything. They formed life. We might not notice it but it's there just as natural air and water. Ugh it was the inspiration and reassurance I needed today. It was perfect.

Happy belated Birthday to Chad and Dennis :)

Curiosity killed the cat.

I'm done. Seriously. It's done.

First Grade

People have said that your first year of college is like Kindergarten. If that is the case then first grade isn't that bad. First grade have a couple friends familiar faces. You know where everything is. Your not so lost and helpless like kindergarten. You don't wet your pants cause your a big kid now. First day set of new rules. Much more stricter than last year but it's good in a way. Then new faces. Some gooood looking ones too ;)! Haha. It was a nice first day back. Saw all my friends and got big bear hugs. <3 My second class was really confusing but I really liked it :)! We learned about Sister Corita her work was amazing and inspiring. The colors the quotes she picked. The message she stressed it was wonderful. Just don't like the assignment x) haha but I'll get through it. I survived last year. When the nine hours were done I had food waiting on the stove for me and my mommy did my laundry. We ran some errands. Pinkie's dad finally got the internet working. I love him! Haha. Then had some mellow downtime talking to Gemel Mark. I love my best friend. I want him to get in the nursing program and I have so much faith in him. I know he will. Then Winnie came back she's apparently our 4th room mate for the month-ish. Then some more downtime watching TV. GOT THAT RUNNING TOO! :) Yay! I'm excited.