waiting. waiting. waiting. for jeff to get home so we can go out with the other two dancing queens. i got mail from CCA and OTIS, i still don't know which college to choose (if i get accepted). i got three schools on my mind: columbia college chicago, california college of art, and otis. i was looking at ccc as a different enviroment, so i can grow right get out of that comfort zone. cali college of art is in san fran, where jeff and esther is and otis same thing but in LA. so what do i choose comfort or not.

immoral,

I have a long weekend ahead of me, I have a lot on my plate, I just hoping to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and a can of monster at the end. I haven't blogged much I've been too tired. School is ok, something about this term feels good, it's not because high school is going to be over. No things are starting to feel like how it should have been in the beginning, it feels like the summer. We all got along. My confidence is not all up, but hell I'm getting there, slowly getting there. If it wasn't for all those tears idk... but I will admit this year I learned more about myself then I ever thought possible.

Anyways looking at the weekend...
I've got a videos, portfolios, essays, and chores on my plate. Note everything ends with an "s" oh well another challenge I got to face. Insonmia I tell you, but the ol' man been supportive and everyone else. I love them. Man, they all saved me from myself bigtime, thank you.

So this weekend:
SATURDAY
•Vaccum, Laundry, Yard work, Cleaning the bathroom
• Work on IB part of video
• Tanaka's Essay
• Study
• One portfolio done? maybe

SUNDAY
• Work on Alma Mater
• Cheng's Essays
• Study
• Portfolio number 2 (different requirements)
• Film earth month :)

how immoral, unethical of me but oh well ;D LOL

it's been a while

i feel like a monster. i've said so much that i'm surprised i ain't struck by lighting yet.
i need a bar of soap in my mouth now. but then again it was the only way or relieving stress.
lord forgive me.

I've loved you so long

I've loved you so long is a french movie that is absolutely amazing. Kristin Scott Thomas performance, like you really felt the character's pain. This movie is about a lady who has been released from prison after 15 years and is taken in under the care of her younger sister whom she has not spoken to for 15 years. The movie reveals early on what crime she had committed. She had killed her 6 year old son, relieving the audience. The question still remains why? why? Then slowly but not as obvious like American movies. You think they would have thrown flashbacks to see the character so disturbed give us a clue. No instead they stay true and show emotion rather than exploit her.

I don't know not a movie critic but watch it amazing.

Obama?

Today he became the 44th president. I'm scared. Times are tough and I don't know it's just scary. It's gonna get tough, and that's what scares. Every decision is important. I seriously, I don't know if I even made the right decision, ugh. Takin' my mind off it. DVD night.

My sister.

So on average I blog every 3 days? Anyways.

My sister came home from my dad's place and I don't know why, I just hug her. I love my little sister. As annoying as she can be. I love her. Earlier this evening we started talking about our parents. She's a good girl. I feel bad cause she's always had been stuck in the middle. She takes care of my mom and I. I don't take notice at first. She wants to live with my dad, she figures if I'm leaving or go off to college might as well. We started talking about it. Then she tells me, about a current problem i'm having with my dad and stepmom "no matter what Ahndi I'll make sure aunty sally knows the truth (btw that's my stepmom) that you don't care about not getting anything from her for christmas, i'll tell her your not materilistic and your happy with what you got, cause that's how you are, sometimes i feel dumb i ask for a lot and you don't" i started to cry. even though she annoys me, i would knock the shit out of you, if you mess with her.

i think i handle myself pretty well today. today was a good day :)

•finished w/e i can do with winterball layout. got all the candid photos laid out. fixed the pica spacing. just need the court picture :) and then went to film with jeff esther and gemel was pretty fun :D in the libary i swear don't let esther do serious acting ;) she'll crack up and you will too
•third period oh my gosh i was saved. daniel and ivy never showed up. chee wasn't forced into sharing my homework, which one of my group members are printing ;D mhmmm hahahaha
•finish taking the roster photos, and vectored :D something i never did in a long time

afterschool, i was almost killed. by antonio and jon :) hahaha funny video. and erin was there in rams class, i'm a fat ass i ate some of her food, she offered. did little things here and there. then called gemel and all i heard was council cheering. like wth? they said there was no school. so hung up and checked the BOE website, chee no school. then phyll and rams was checking up on it while praising halleluia. chee no school. theres a god and bad side oh well nai nai time