I'm dying of frustration, confusion, everything. I can't stand it I want to punch a wall. I want to hit something. I just want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!

Got home on Monday. To be honest, I don't remember ever being in Los Angeles. I can't recall a single day. It felt like I was in a deep sleep and I just woke up. It's just weird. I'm dreading the day I need to go back, but I need to stay strong! FIGHTING!

If someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it. So don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

It has been a while since I could jot down a note that is actually meaningful. It's almost time to fly home yet I'm not excited as I hoped to be. Before I was so excited I counted down the days and dreamed about boarding the plane. Hearing "we will be reaching our destination shortly..." Now it seems like I am no longer in the mood to go. I don't know what it is. Everything is fine. Relationships (friendships, family, etc.) is fine. Everything is fine. I'm in the single digit count down and yet I feel sad. Is that normal? Someone tell me.

Maybe I'm scared and I'm a coward. That something will occur that will make me regret coming home. Then I'll end up regretting regretting that I wanted to come home. It's complicated.

Well as of today I have 6 more glorious days! 4 more days of school. I regret not flying out on Sunday.

Have I been so accustomed to summing up my day in 140 characters or less. Damn that's a shame. I use to blog ideas and personal growth. It seems now I'm too tired, or lazy. Not in the mood. What a shame. A wasted mind. Damn.

Winter break I was looking forward to some good eats. Hiking. QT with family and friends. Honestly going to church with you. Idk if that last request is going to happen.

Last day of CAS so happy :) fo' real! Awww she gave us cookies <3 today was a good day indeed.