AHNDIWEAR

i feel disappointed in my self
i feel hurt
i feel patronized
i feel a mix bag full of depressing emotions.
still...
hard blow yesterday
first the scare
then the cold shoulder
then HM
the tears
then the half ass work
make you feel like nothing...
then the shutdown on the graphic
the half ass work
then HM
then football game
then the attitude
then HM
then mother...
all lead to one conclusion
time to take that stupid break.
but i won't let it get in my way of enjoying my day right now.

"I don't like work-no man does-but I like what is in the work,-the chance to find yourself. Your own reality-for yourself, not for others-what no other man can ever know. They can only see the mere show, and never can tell what it really means. "

--Joseph Conrad Heart of Darkeness

haha if Ms. Tanaka could only see me now.