Mean?

Last night I was talking to Gemel, and I called him bitch (jokingly). Then he told me
"Geez Ahndi Your More Meaner This Year"
I was flabbergasted (haha big word). Did I become more mean?
Yeah sure, I got my opinions.
I do use profanity.
I talk a little to loud and too much.
I think I did.

Hmmmph :(
I need an attitude makeover.

furious,

UPDATE!
Could I be crazy enough not to quit?

I'm seriously furious right now. First of all I clearly stated I would help that committee out. That I will give them the IDEA and they needed to write the script. Well I gave them the idea and left. I come back and all of the sudden I'm asked to write it. I ask why me? I came up with the idea! UGH! So I write it and next thing you know they ALTER it and only told me now!

*UGHHHHH!

Dalai Lama,

Everyday, think as you wake up,
today I am fortunate to have woken up, I am alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it.
I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others, to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings, I am going to have kind thoughts towards others,
I am not going to get angry or think badly about others, I am going to benefit others as much as I can.
-Dalai Lama

Balancing Act,

The tip to balancing, concentrate on each object one at a time. When losing it, remember it's o.k. to fall, have a set back remember do not cry over spilled milk. And know when too much is too much (make sense?)

Yep, this balance between SABER MEDIA, '09 Council, and School is working fine so far, just afraid when homecoming comes around. I really am considering quiting. Council is annoying, it takes up too much time. It's draining. Under appreciated. Worst of all...

We were broken up into committees for Welcome Back assembly in school. I clearly stated that I did not want to do the script! I did not want to write it. I will HELP give them an IDEA! But NO now I need to do it. Every time someone can't do something it falls on Jeffry and I. We ask them for a simple task, some can't do it and we take the fall for it. We take the fall every single time!

academy of art :) I'm coming for ya.

Lesson From Psychology,

Today Mr. Cheng showed the class an interesting video on the skepticism surrounding psychics. So the video made an interesting point on how we think, like how our teacher Mr. Cheng has selective hearing our brains are selective. Us being human are so insecure so afraid of "what comes next" the future. We take comfort in false promises. False Promises: Horoscopes, Palm Reading, etc. Our minds want to think, want to believe whatever will satisfy that feeling of not knowing.

More on the video, so like it showed this preacher who claimed to heal, and he would put on a whole show. It showed him smack this one lady in the head, saying she's healed. Also take this old lady off her walker and claim she was healed. I couldn't help it I was laughing my ass off (LMFAO!). In my head I was like someone should press charges on him. Everyone thought I was mean till they found out the man was a phony. The man ended up filing bankruptcy, karma?

New Lesson:
The reason people find it so hard to be happy
is that they always see the past better than it was,
the present worse than it is,
and the future less resolved than it will be.

I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane...

Heh, thought that would be a catchy title for this (Pretty lame oh well).
Yesterday afternoon, Daniel and I went to the airport to see Evelyn off. Sherwin, Louie, and Jumar was there as well. Pleasant good bye, with gifts, a jam session, pictures, and a lovely prayer that ended in tears.

I started to think about it... next year that maybe me, leaving on a jet plane. I know where I want to go, my heart been set for that school since I was eight. Seriously, no joke. The thought gave me goosebumps. The count down had begun a long time ago, it's nearing the end and start of something new. (make sense?)