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i'm sorry i told you how i saw it. i've been keeping that in the whole week. but i'm tired of seeing you beating yourself up over a person. sorry that person meant a lot. but now your upset with me? i've been your friend since sophomore year. i struggle to find the words, to comfort you. i'm sorry i'm not much help like everyone else, but i tried -___- you know how frustrating that is, wanting to help someone so bad, but you don't know what to say, trying to avoid hurting their feelings? i've been your friend for a long time and i still can't comfort you after what you've done for me :( i never ever ever ever will be upset with you, i will never ever ever ever ever ever be upset because your sad, that's stupid. if you think i was mad when i told you all that i wasn't in my mind i was trying to say it as nice as possible. i had to sign off abruptly honest to god. when i did sign back on you weren't online. i love you, don't i tell you that everyday? i'm sorry.

Hot & Cold Yes & No Up & Down Wrong & Right...

Today was a pretty ok day, we didn't have a so called pop quiz in trigonometry. Third period either no one understood or no one got the webnote on Tale of Two Cities, no one got punished. Instead we were given the opportunity to purchase the book that has notes in the back of it. 4th period helped whoever, trying install leopard. "brainless" work again -___-. After school burned a football game, helped jordan with his edit, trying to fricken install something. the ol' man was off his rocker.

looking at the weekend i got to read 6 chapters, answer question. fix my psych paper and handout. portfolio!!! start slideshow. clean the house.

This morning i was very upset. When I got home, he made me even more mad. Then I called him with a speech prepared, but then he did this thing and I forgot why I was even mad. Stupid. Started talking about Science Fair and his day and my day. Stupid. He's such a geek I swear. Stupid. Then he had to drive for his mommy and promise to call back later. Stupid.

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...

I found out near the end of third period that we needed to read 5 chapters of Tale of Two Cities. I can't get past the first couple of pages. fail.

Line

Phone Line
Calls me, I call him back .We're on the phone say Hi, what you doing. Both doing homework. He's doing calculus. I'm editing. We don't talk just. Then after 5 minutes of silence then "i'll call you back". We don't.

Morning
I'm coming now. Ok. 5 min later he comes. Drop off his brother and cousin. Clear the throat. Look at him, he looks back through mirror. Parking lot. Bell rings got to go.

Lunch
In front of G building he's heading towards the office. I head toward J.

3rd Period
He clears his throat. I look. He looks. I look away. Repeat. Mouth YOUR FACE. I get up take his pencil. He just throws out his hand. I tease him, doesn't work. Give back. Do work. 4th period.


LAME LAME LAME!

(QUICK BREAK)Good Morning Sabers...

This is your student morning bulletin. I'm happy and satisfied with how things are running. So much problems in the first half of the year and now things are finally coming together. Broadcast is awesome, our yearbook is awesome, newspaper got a major cosmetic surgery. I'm such a geek. This feeling, is what I've been waiting for, as lame as that sounds. Since it's a semi new month, 5 days late no matter. GOALS! Raise the grades raise it so I can get a 3.5 on my cumulative. Learn Illustrator and AE :)!

it's all good in the neighborhood.

Survey says...

BASICS:
001. Real name? - Ahndiana Flores
002. Nickname(s)? - ahndimohala, ahndiwear, ahndi, ahnz, awear, gaina (don't ask -__-)
003. Relationship Status? - Single.
004. Zodiac sign? - Cancer
005. Male or Female? - Female
006. Elementary? - Holomua
007. Middle School? - 'Ilima
008. High School? - James Campbell HS
009. College? - Not yet but crossing my fingers on a few
010. Hair color? - Black
011. Long or short? - Short
012. Loud or Quiet? - Depends ;)
013. Favorite Genre? - Indie Rock
014. Favorite Band/Artist? - Beatles :)
015. Favorite Song? - Nothing in particular
016. Favorite Colour? - Red Black and White
017. Sweats or Jeans? - Jeans
018. Phone or Camera? - Camera
019. Health freak? - LOL! No
020. Drink or Smoke? - Neither
021. Do you have a crush on someone? - No
022. Eat or Drink? - Their both vital to my life
023. Piercing? - Ears
024. Tattoos? - None

FIRSTS:
025. First piercing? - When I was 2 on my ears
026. First best friend(s)? - Amanda C.
027. First award? - I forgot
028. First crush? - HAHAHAHA! NO!
029. First pet? - A dog, mans best friend
030. First big vacation? - PI
031. First big birthday? - 1st birthday

CURRENTLY:
032. Eating? - Nothing
033. Drinking? - Nothing
034. I'm about to? - Pull an all nighter
035. Listening to? - Nothing
036. Plans for today? - Homework, Tweak, Blog, Sleep
037. Waiting for? - Nothing

YOUR FUTURE:
038. Want kids? - Sure
039. Want to get married? - Yes
040. Careers in mind? - Art Director

WHICH IS BETTER IN A GIRL/BOY?
041. Lips or eyes? - Eyes
042. Shorter or taller? - Taller
043. Romantic or spontaneous? - Spontaneous
044. Nice stomach or nice arms? - It don't matter
045. Sensitive or loud? - Can I get a 50/50?
046. Hook-up or relationship? - Relationship
047. Trouble maker or hesitant? - Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
048. Lost glasses/contacts? - 20/20 vision BIA!
049. Ran away from home? - No
050. Held a gun/knife for self defense? - No
051. Killed somebody? - No
052. Broken someone's heart? - No
053. Been arrested? - No
054. Cried when someone died? - Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
055. Yourself? - Yes
056. Miracles? - Yes
057. Love at first sight? -
058. Heaven? - Yes
059. Santa Claus? - No
060. Sex on the first date? - Random, No.
061. Kiss on the first date? - I don't know?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
062. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - No
063. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? - No
064. Do you believe in God? - No

065. Post as truths and tag. Tag 10 people: if I've tagged you that means I want to know more about you

Dear Friend I got 99 problems but a...

Dear Friend,
I've been your friend through thick and thin. You've been the person I can turn to, so there is no need to apologize. You committed no crime. It's my turn to return the favor and be the kind of friend you've been all along. Lean on me when your not strong, we all know that song. I love you. Now wipe up those tears and we'll figure this out.

Dear Friend,
I can't believe what I seen today. Don't think of it as a moment of weakness, we all are feeling that pressure got to let it out. In my case I've let it out wayyyy too much. I admire your ability to be strong and assertive. Your doing good, keep it up. Don't ever let others think your not good enough, you've made a huge turn around. This term, got to admit been good, minor set backs. It's not perfect but we're getting there all. Keep it up. & BTW Thank you so much.

Dear Friend,
I'm glad we are at peace. Yes there is things we need to talk out and I do agree with what your saying. Just be patient, don't keep it in. Literally speak out.

Dear Friend,
For a person so young you got a lot of wisdom. You seem to got your life in control, staying focus. I wish I had your determination and energy. All got our up and downs, but dang it's life. If life was smooth sailing we all end up like brats. Sometimes it's just a slap of reality. I don't got much to say, you probably got it all figured.

Dear Elder,
Now that is old. I've said this about 3-5 times to day but just so "you know" one day I won't flinch. I have no idea why I'm afraid of you after 2 years, but thank you for talking to me. Just like a father, boy oh boy your kids are lucky. Anyways Bring on the big tasks, bring the on the storm. I swear I am sane. If I cried at the very last minute last time over a mistake, pretty darn sure I'm ok next time around.