Christmas List Part 2

I don't ask for much. Anyways, today gift wrapping thingy at Borders. I haven't touch the external in the past 4 days, I put off everything cause this is the break I'm actually going to take it. Since I haven't done so over the summer, waiver days, and fall break. I actually drew something in my drawing book, cleared my mind enough, FINALLY! Still bothered by the fact the HM knows about the accident. Not looking forward to school, this blog probably piss off maryxbaby psst.. I never cry today haha.

Journey's Bomb Tote Bag

Journey's Plaid Messenger Bag
Dream Create Live Burnout Tee Forever 21 (HAHA)

Christmas List

Vans Boylston
IPOD Nano (PRODUCT) RED
Borders Gift Card
Pucca Doll :)
Canon PowerShot SD880 IS
The Shack by William P. Young

November 27

Unlike my friend, I do not like the trend. Happy Thanksgiving. So Thanksgiving plans, went to my cousins house and now at my other cousins house. Why we are not just at one house, one big happy family I do not know. The food is good as usual, I think I might die from my aunties desert trying very hard to avoid it. So what I am thankful for huh? The traditional stuff...

Mom- Always been there for me, although we engage in many pointless arguments, I still love her and I know she only wants the best of me and the best for me. She struggles, for my sister and I. I'm thankful for her selfless love.

Sister-Picking up the pieces. She's a good girl, although she acts immature. When I'm really hurt she takes care of me.

Kirstin- Is practically my older sister, although I do not agree on the things she does, she looks out for me and got my back. Always welcoming me. Giving me a place to run to when things get rough

Jeffry- One of my best friends. Always the guy you can count on the shoulder to cry on the sensitive teddy bear. He's been there for me, and I only hope I've been there enough for him. He has the biggest heart ever, although he's been through a lot. I love him.

Daniel- Sistah from another mother, nailz. Shit he entertains me, he's brighter than sunshine that's why ;) When I do panic and cry he's always the one telling me "No worriez sistah" Makes me laugh, Makes my day, he's the kine of people that makes life interesting.

Gemel- I love him, although he's a pain in the ass. My taxi driver. We argue a lot, barely talk, but he always got a place in my heart.

Ramiscal- The father figure, my in school father. He's always there counseling me, scolding me, making me cry, trying to make me a better person. Pushing me always, and for that I'm eternally grateful.

Mama Q- She's more like an aunty, she's so funny and lovable. She always console me when I am crying, when the big bully picks on me :)!

Mary & Esther- They drive me completely nuts, but I love them. Always letting me munch off them, sure we argue a lot, and I AM total opposites of them we still get along, shit we get shit done and damn it's amazing

Yesterday afternoon never again do I want to hear *her talk about things again. Got so distracted I wrote DICK UTILITY instead of Disk Utility, NAILZ.

for the next months my weekend is already filling up.
dec. 6 - SAT
dec. 13 - Cousin's wedding
dec. 21 - hiking ;]

so today told rams our (jordan and i) idea for a field trip. and to my surprise he was all happy to go too. and shizz. we started planning it out. today been working, busy body no joke. i can handle now. cherry. update more later.

now is later.
so today is today and yesterday is the shizz i wrote up there, lets start with yesterday.
yesterday first period had some lameee ass testing, someone wrote a note "lets not cheat" and passed it along, haha bullshit. everyone was cheating. the test was easy i took it semi-serious. came back to first period, someone was happy to see me -___- second period was working on yearbook and all that, then popped into ramiscal's class chit chat about hiking. a leaf and a stick used to poop, uh the stick? (inside joke). third period, snoozeeeer i hate those videos. fourth period boy did i feel like the boss lady created a checklist awear all over it, to get my layout done! after school log and cap 3 tapes.

last night, went to mickey d's with my mom, sis, cousin, and grandma. my grandma brought up the Philippines. Man I haven't been there in a long time, my other grandma who loved and took care of me, practically raised me till i was in elementary school, the last time i talked to her our conversation left me in tears. she told me i don't have much time left, come visit me, please i want to see you before i die. that was a couple years ago. recently our calls, is impossible... she's losing her memory. my mother made it a point to send me there next year. and my dad take care of my sisters fare.

life is moving at a fast pace... right now i don't know what i want to do in life.
there's this one thing, but everyone will think i'm nuts.
oh well laters... gemel should be coming soon.

seasonal depression?

could it be possible. it's the weather. it's the fact it's the holidays.
up till the third grade, my christmas... had christmas lights
a huge tree a little village with snow men statues
manger statues and car rides to see all the lights.
christmas songs. and alvin and the chipmunks.
then one year later to...
crying cause i wanted my old christmas.
i wanted that feeling that love from both my parents
i wanted them there together
never again did my house light up with decorations
never again did the smell of pine filled my house.
never been the same since.
when it comes to this part of the year.
my mind wonders on the upcoming year.
my feelings, all the troubles i kept locked up
comes out. as i let the cold tickle me.
this year... just feels different.
hope something good happens.

when was the last time...

you picked up a book? my answer to that question a very long long time ago :( for me that's sad. not that i hate reading, i love reading, but just finding the time and the right setting. recently everything has been at a fast pace, so busy i need to think a month ahead now. and when i do get the time i need, i am dog tired to do anything. that. this. needs to change. now what brings me to this topic...

today i did not attend church, i did go to the movies along with esther, daniel, and the ramiscals. esther, daniel, and i had some time to kill before meeting up with the ramiscals so went looking around odessey town. we went to a mini borders, and esther wanted to buy twilight, as for daniel he was pressured, gave in to buying it too. As for me i purchased a sketchbook. then we met up with the ramiscals and watched "BOLT" it's a cute movie, us geeky big kids got a couple laughs at the characters and a boom mic. then we left to get some jamba juice and pandas to go. we dropped off essy and daniel parked it at waikele to eat. then we entered borders. and to our surprise ohshaaaa rams was there, purchasing some right brained something book. then we left for home. so everyone is reading and i'm still tired from everything.

homework, should start that biography. but i don't know how. ugh i dislike cheng's class. that laziness is kicking in. ugh.

the weekend.

Friday, I was in school finishing up a couple yearbook stuff in the studio while listening to some 80's music and being freaked out by one music video Bonnie Tyler's Total Eclipse of the Heart. SO nails. Then got a ride to Kalihi and caught the bus to the heart of downtown, all for nothing I was so upset. Spent some time at home, till Daniel IM me. He asked if I was interested in going to an IB party, so we went to the IB party. It was cute, they had a pie eating contest. Then we watched thee most disghusting movie. Inside a french horror.

Saturday, I was in school AGAIN. Haha cheerleading competition. I was bored. I juggled stills and video. Pretty ok. Had a few laughs here and there. Rams got a Wii and has been "addicted" to it. Jeff checking them cheerleaders out, haha jk. jk. jk.

Today church and movies, gonna go out and see BOLT with Essy, Dfizz, and the Rams Fam because of OMK :)