seasonal depression?

could it be possible. it's the weather. it's the fact it's the holidays.
up till the third grade, my christmas... had christmas lights
a huge tree a little village with snow men statues
manger statues and car rides to see all the lights.
christmas songs. and alvin and the chipmunks.
then one year later to...
crying cause i wanted my old christmas.
i wanted that feeling that love from both my parents
i wanted them there together
never again did my house light up with decorations
never again did the smell of pine filled my house.
never been the same since.
when it comes to this part of the year.
my mind wonders on the upcoming year.
my feelings, all the troubles i kept locked up
comes out. as i let the cold tickle me.
this year... just feels different.
hope something good happens.