DEAR FRIEND,

To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself. Friends, you and me... You brought another friend... and then there were three... We started our group... Our circle of friends... Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift that's what they call it the present.
--Eleanor Roosevelt

WORD.
this is not towards anyone in particular. intended for the general reader.

a good day. a very good day indeed. optimistic view on life is not so bad.

honestly, i don't know you anymore. bye.

you and your wife can kiss my ass. care? you the one who left me! you idiot you left me! left me and you talk about growing up! i had to grow up when i was nine and you mock my mom! my mom for all the times she pulled it together. all the times she wanted to break down and cry... even die! and you talk about caring. "why should i give a shit? what do i get from you?" i'm not a fucking investment i'm your daughter. i swallowed my pride and called you and your wife and wished you a happy valentines day. when i heard your wife was in the hospital i called and asked if everything was ok!!!!! why i don't like to see you? why i refuse to get into the car? because once i get in i get treated like shit. i get forgotten, aunty sally comes first. then you just throw your temper at me get all dissapointed at me?! for no damn reason. at least when mom is mad she has reason, frustrated from all the burden you put on us when you left. so fuck you, you go to PI over the summer only telling me a day before you leave. You go to NY in the fall telling me a day before you leave?! fuck you. there are so many reason why i hate you and i'm trying to forgive really am trying but you make it hard.

past two days:

• Went to Loco Moco with Jeff
• Went to school working on yearbook/slideshow
• Teachers were wondering why we were there
• Sold candy to them after being taught the ways of a salesperson from Ms. Tanaka
• Was the prom queen, with a tie
• Went to photoshoot at the beach and park while waiting for stuff to burn
• Jeff and Jordan in front of my house
• Went with Jordan and played ball with Edison Sherwin Erin Justin
• Went to Wal-Mart with them to find lights. FAIL.
• Went to Jordan's house, light painted in his backyard
• Superman, Dragonball Z and random things
• Sherwin dropped me home

NEXT DAY:
• Called Gemel talked for a while
• Went to Zippy's with my mommy
• Dalie fighting to be my cashier haha
• A zip pack a chilli chicken mixed plate later we were done
• Went to pick up Jeffry
• Stuck in traffic went to Lexie's first birthday party
• Helped the ol' man set up well technically he was helping us
• Watched Bungee the clown and played the slideshow
• Have you ever been in love was killing me, made the parents cry with the slideshow
• Clean up, ol' man was talking Filipino it was so weird but interesting
• Loaded the car "My last command go eat" I was very hesitant to do so as well as Jeff
• I got cake with white frosting and sprinkles ontop with chicken that Jeff grabbed
• Jumped into the ol' man's car like an illegal immigrant LETS GO CHICO!
• Shared a conversation with thee cutest almost 3 year old baby girl
• Went to Waikele, noticed Jamba cards in our goodie bag. Used them.
• Orange Dream and Matcha Green Tea THICK WITH EXTRA ICE
• Photography books at the "library"
• Mom picked us up and dropped us off at shoreline
• Semi photoshoot and talk session?
• Plans for light painting formed
• Daniel picked Jeff and I up
• JAMBA JORDANS WAL MART MICKEY D'S LONGS
• BLUE LED LIGHT and NUTTER BUTTER
• Dropped Jeff and Erin home
• WAIKELE STARBUCKS
• Met up with Justin
• Fail ATTEMP at Sports Authority
• MANAGERS
• Flashing lights
• Jordans Place
• Videos
• Jack In The Box
• Light painting intro
• Edison dropped me off
• Edit a little
• Sleep

Moving at the speed of light into eternity..

right now out with sherwin jordan justin edison light painting at jordans place
damn it's cold shizz brb


later, just woke up. i got home about 1. pretty amazing light painting :D we were watching some videos on vimeo, people in Europe dang! No life I swear or they do it for a living. So last night after meeting up at several destinations and Justin's instincts on the bridge. We went back to Jordans place and all started a video. All intro and a few things with Justin.

This week got to film! Got to get videos working. It's like a video a day this week. 7 total for youth exchange and hmsa. CHEE hella excited. Everything MUST go according to plan I hope. Ok peace.

Ordinary People...

Am I living the Ordinary People music video? Today I witnessed 3 fights. First was my bestfriend and I then my neighbors was fighting Father v. Daughter and lastly my mom and my dad.

Scene 1:
I HATE how everyone assumes I like him and stuff like that, I HATE that the assumptions lead him to believe I still like him. I HATE how in school he's a jerk to me, but at home it's ok, all because of what other people think. I HATE how he lets that bother him.

Scene 2:
They were screaming at the top of their lungs that all the surrounding neighbors garage lights went on. Poor mother was in between.

Scene 3:
My little sister caught in between my parents.