cause you had a bad day,

today was a bittersweet day. I cried, DAMN IT I CRIED! AGAIN! Ughh I thought I was doing good too. What hurt the most, was the fact he predicted it, he predicted I was going to freak out and cry. CRY! and i did! i wanted to prove everyone wrong that I could get through it without a tear, i wanted to prove it to myself. I was almost there, i was so damn sure I could do it. THEN I HAD TO CRY! being scolded? lectured? advised? again not fair not fair not fair. at least wasn't stress. ahndi again going on and on about crying, you don't know how much it means I wanted to keep my composure this time prove to myself I can do it. >____________<

in other news seems like everyone else is not having a good day.

we all are familiar with a bad day. it starts off as a normal day then WHAM! a problem leaks through, then another, then another, next thing you know your drowning in disappointment, stress, frustration. don't got no where to turn to, you try your best to bottle it up, your best not to wear it, your best not to let it get to you but in the end you pop. your attitude spills onto others, you didn't mean to. of course not it's all because you had a bad day you'll end up telling them after a day or two. then your stuck face looking down eyes full of tears and frustration both hands on your head as you pull at your hair and try to figure it all out, am i being punished? what did i do? why me?

well afterschool was ok, working with esther on our video waiting for jeff, watching the ol' man play with his iphone, trying to avoid the ol' man so we don't get work. talking to mary and sean briefly. then jeff came, i was scared >______< still am. then worked with esther and waited for her mom to grab us. then going to her house and eating pork chops and pinkabet(sp?). then home, homework, homework, homework -_____- and playing dr. phil.